RAGE
2006-03-12
hey peeps
I've lost my inspiration! today i was typing my story at the sppd of sound and now i just cant be arsed. I'm beginning to think as if my story is veering on the impossible.
Im too embarrassed about it to put a part of it online ebcasue you'll think me as a freak. It's about demons and magic...if you think thats lame then you wont like it.
Nevermind, im starting to base my character on people now. So if people i know read it they might get annoyed becasue of the way i've portrayed some of them.
Also...im beginning to hate going to school. I never liked it but now i seroiusly dont. I hate trying to pretend to me happy about being there when no one else does. What's the point in trying to be content when no one cares? i hate trying to be happy in sake of others? im sick to death with it. The next time some one is ingorant in front of me when i am trying to be kind, i willl jump down their throats.
Alos, if someone doesnt like me being around them, they they should bloody tell me. I find it is cruel when they treat me like shit and are quiet to me abut responsive around others. I feel as if i dont have a point i life because of the way they treat me. Sometimes i feel bloody sucidial because of what they make me feel.
Im sick of it.
Can they jsut fuck off and leave me alone?
I DO have fucking feelings and it doesnt help when you crush them as if they are dirt under their feet!!
'I lay my dreams beneath your feet, tred carefully, because you tred on my dreams" -keats
Now, enough of that rant...i hope that if someone reads this and realises that its them that they feel bad.
Hopefully thing should get better because i have always been treated like this all my life and i am absloutely sick of it!
Anyway....luv you all ¬_¬