sadistic
2006-04-10
Hello everybody...sorry i havent been updating. I've bgeen in one of those mood swings where i dont want to speak to any one. Odd huh? i mean, im not exactly the most peaceful person as mes amis can tell you.
Well, everything is good, except for the fact i've been using this holiday to sulk in my own solitary. Partly because i've been getting rather viscous lately and i dont want anyone to think im angry at them.
The reason why i've been odd is slightly odd really. As you most probably know, im an avid reader. Rescently i've been an avid writer and know i have forged a story based on my deep emotions.
The problem is, looking back at what kind of person i am it really freaks me out. I am a sadistic freak and no kidding.
In all my stories i write, either some gets tortured or brutally murdered. I like reading books about that kinkda thing too. The problem is, is that i really enjoy writting about it.
All the parts about kidnap are usually the best parts in my stories. Partly becasue i like to describe it clearly, with all the feelings etc. The weird thing is, that i find that writing about pain and suffering makes me feel a little better about myself!!
Ahh, its so odd. I'm a freak. Oh well, i'll just make sure i wont kidnap anyone.
Oh another weird thing is that i dont want to kidnap anyone in particular but i want to be kidnapped myself. I just find the emotions easy to relate to.
I know what you're thinking. Jess is mentally handicapped. Well, maybe i am. i just love relating to pain and love...its my thing, so to say.
So if i ever get a book published, its most likely to be gruesome and kinky.