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2006-04-25
Suddenly im in a bad mood.
fuck...im in a very bad mood
why do i always have to end up doing something really stupid and ruin everythnig?
am i a retarded freak that deserves to be shot down?
i know why. becasue i just care to fucking much.
why am i always the one who has to care about how my feiends feel? and why do i think it's my responsiblity to make my friends happy?
Everytime i try to make things better for people they just tell me to fuck off. Why cant anybody just understand that i am happy if others are happy?
Its as if everyone is desperately trying to shut me out just to make me feel sad. I know perfectly well that my friends know what im like and that the reason why i ask them if they are ok is because i actually am concerned.
Is that a fucking probelm?
Is it a crime to be concerned about my own friends' well fare?
AAAARRRGH I AM FEELING SO FUCKING EMO RIGHT NOW
right now i just want to be alone but i dont. No one seems to care about me...and i dont want to care about them anymore becasue when i do it they only shut me out more....making me feel broken.
i feel pointless
the only thing im good at is getting a* in stuff...and thats a lame thing to care about and be happy about.
now let me sulk in my own self pity